Jesus Changed My Heart
Originally born in Las Vegas Nevada and raised in Berkeley California, I found myself being born again while attending the University Of Las Vegas Nevada. It was the first time in my life I remember hearing the gospel (good news) of Jesus Christ… up until that point I was making a mess of my life with no real direction or purpose trying to find my identity in girls, friends, parties, and the list goes on. Those things only seemed to bring about more anxiety, insecurity, and a continual and ever growing affliction in my heart. I kept trying to figure out why I was hurting but no matter what I did I couldn’t escape the pain, I remember thinking to myself “this must be what drives people to commit suicide.”
It was during this brokenness that a fellow student shared the gospel with me and I began to see a process of life transformation I never would have imagined. For the first time I realized that Jesus Christ took upon himself what I deserved when he died on the cross. That it was not I who would make myself a good person but Jesus who would transform me from the inside out and give me new identity being in relationship with him. Becoming a Christian didn’t take away all the pain, but I could see my heart changing over time and could not deny that something outside of my efforts was growing in me peace, hope, joy, and love which by God’s grace continues growing today.
Life continues to throw curve balls at me but Jesus gives me the strength to press on in the plans that he has for me when I would otherwise give up. I have learned that Jesus has a purpose for all things and uses difficult and painful situations to mold me more and more into the person he wants me to be. Jesus is alive! and the life I have knowing him is my greatest treasure.
The following is a clip from Mars Hill Church of Mark Driscoll preaching about the life change I experienced and the gospel that continues to transform me.